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    To Pray or Not to Pray

    Hello there! (To whoever is reading this)

    To pray or not to pray? There are these writing inspirations that lately came up in my mind. I will tell you the power of praying and how it give me effects through life. Maybe you have different thoughts, that’s okay, I respect that.

    I am a Christian but I don’t talk about only Christian people. I talk for all religions. Just FYI I hate fanatic people. Before I became a Christian, I heard a friend of mine saying to another friend that she will go to hell if you are not becoming a Christian. Hmm to be honest, I know she maybe have the experience of having a miracle from being a Christian but that’s not how you say it to people. For me, sharing is enough. Just have respect on each other’s religion.

    Religion are choices.

    Let’s get to the point. I recently have had heard some devastating stories from my friends. I mean, sometimes they took life too hard (while doesn’t think others are harder).

    A story of mine, I have had a tough year last year. I stopped praying when I met my someone (2 years ago). All I know was just having fun. I forgot about God. It is not the first time I am like this. I know I sometimes had the committal issues regarding to praying and reading bible or reading “Word of the Day”. I just stopped. Then last year something happened. It’s a big thing for me that made me want to suicide. Luckily I have a Religion and I started praying again. To be honest, even though I prayed it doesn’t mean that the suicidal thoughts are gone. I was stressed I lost like 7 Kg without dieting.

    For me I talked with my God, Jesus, and the holy spirit surrounds me. I cried almost everyday while praying asking for His forgiveness and asking for a way out. It doesn’t heal in just a day (the suicidal thoughts), but it is good to have a God to talk and lean on especially when you have no one. From there you will start to get positive thoughts, you have something to believe, something good.

    I started to read Word of the Day again and I almost never skipped a day until now.

    Honestly I had ups and downs on religion. When I am happy I forgot about going to Church or praying. I know that really a big mistake. We shouldn’t leave our God because He is suppose to be our first priority. He is the one that made us and can heal our wounds whenever we are down.

    I am writing this for those who are kind of lost, kind of loosing hope, kind of “suicidalish”, those who doesn’t have anyone, try to pray.

    (I’m sorry I am not good at explaining things but I love to share my experiences with you, I hoped that my writings can influence people to a positive side).

    Read my related and very first post here & and a Letter to Jesus here.

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    Tak Sedetikpun

    Kau Bapa yang setia
    Tak pernah sedetik Kau tinggalkan diriku
    Hatiku teguh di dalam janji-Mu
    Sampai ku melihat kuasa-Mu
    Karya-Mu sempurna, ajaib dan mulia
    Penyertaan-Mu buktikan kasih-Mu kepadaku
    Kuagungkan Engkau Yesus termulia
    Kasih-Mu terindah s’lamanya
    Ku tetap berharap di dalam kesesakan
    Ku tetap percaya walau tak melihat
    S’bab ku yakin
    Ronald Pangemanan, Joseph S. Djafar, Michael Panjaitan
    Meaning of this Christian song is Jesus love has the greatest love forever. He never leaves us even when we forgets about Him. I always know He is waiting for me to get back to Him when I’m on the wrong path.

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    A Letter to Jesus

    Before blogging this, I really wanted to complain about things going on today in my until I turn on YouTube to Church songs. I feel like I wanted to pour out about my feelings recently. I cannot claim myself as a Christian fanatic because I never force anyone to really move their religion to mine; even though I wanted them to believe in Jesus Christ. Just a heads up if I blog about Christianity it is because I wanted to share my experience and my struggles also on how God helped me through it.
    Dear Jesus,
    I have been a Christian for about 8 years now. I have been going in and out of Church. I have not been diligent going to Church. I have been forgetting to commit to go to Church, to pray, to not forget about You. All I know is that You are always waiting for me to come back. 
    I see now. All of these problems I am facing is for me to go back to You. For me to be saved again and again. I know when I am happy I tend to forget about You. I did not ask or depend on You; I depend on my own power. You weren’t my priority…until now I realized that all I need is You Jesus.

    Your Child,
    Alyssa Milano
    (yes this is my real name–not the actress though!)

    I was afraid to commit because I always on and off about religion, but recently I have committed to read the Daily Bread, I committed to pray every single day…I know it took a long time to really understands how to love and how to make Jesus priority because Earth things comes first (either it is family or lover or even money). Then today I watched a sermon (streaming) by Pdt. Josia Abdisaputera and it gives me an image of how to make Him priority. I will write it on my next blog under The Journey of a Disciple category (the name is taken by my Church topic).

    Christ is Enough – Hillsong

    Christ is my reward
    And all of my devotion
    Now there’s nothing in this world
    That could ever satisfy

    Through every trial
    My soul will sing
    No turning back
    I’ve been set free

    Christ is enough for me
    Christ is enough for me

    Everything I need is in You
    Everything I need

    Christ my all in all
    The joy of my salvation
    And this hope will never fail
    Heaven is our home
    Through every storm
    My soul will sing
    Jesus is here
    To God be the glory

    I have decided to follow Jesus
    No turning back
    No turning back

    The cross before me
    The world behind me

    No turning back
    No turning back
    Lyric Source