Hello there! (To whoever is reading this)
Welcome to my first blog! This wouldn’t be a quite good introductory though because I started this blog while I have a grieving mood.
Here is the time of my life where I want to hide away from people. Especially people who doesn’t care and hurt me. I forgive but I never forget what they did to me. No, I know I’m not perfect, I know there are a lot of people who are more struggling than me, but today I finally realized that before I needed to be belonged somewhere. It leads me to not being myself. I don’t have any good role models in my life. I don’t want to blame anyone anymore because I am tired of it. Everyone knows it’s them and my own fault, but this problem gets me suicidal thoughts (that is normal but please anyone there that are also stressed out, don’t do it).
Now I’m stuck and all alone and the fault is my own. No. I know God is with me, God is the only reason I kept going and never lose hope. I just need to be patient. I need to finally become myself, but you know you don’t need to know me (just yet). Let my characters in my game resembles me, because
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart.
– Hellen Keller
I really love this quote (why?) because what I feel is if someday you hate your life, the only thing you could see what is beautiful is your passion. What’s my passion? Gaming, and design 🙂 (Most parents wouldn’t understand that gaming is not always bad)
The content of this blog is not all about grieving. It is about how I develop myself after what has happened to me recently. (What has happened?) Long story which maybe I will share or not share later on. I have had a lot of experiences good and bad (mostly bad!) in my life which I could share that maybe it could help someone to know that they are not the only ones that are experiencing that. Other contents will simply about role playing and story telling sometimes related on the games that I played.
Anyway I guess that’s enough talk for now and I would close today’s blog with a saying that we should never give up to whatever problems that are facing us right now.