• Life Picturesque,  Thoughts for Life

    Am I Naive? Seeking my Happiness

    Am I a naive person? All these years seeking for happiness that never comes—No, actually it did for awhile. Well we can’t really hoped for a perfect life right? Though on my previous posts I said that I am quite thankful that problems came to me cause if not maybe I wouldn’t have a religion, I wouldn’t know God. Problems are tests whether we stayed or we go. There is one thing I am sure of is that I believe that good things are coming my way. Maybe not now but later on.
    I have been a Christian for 8 years and there are those times where it was “On and Off”. I really tried hard to commit but it seems that I didn’t know how before. There are some happy times where I just forget about Church, the bible, times where I don’t talk to God, but when I have problems, I always return to Him. So these 2 years I decided that when I am ready I will commit. These few months I had started to commit to God again.
    “All these years seeking for happiness that never comes—No, actually it did for awhile.” I ever felt like there are these phases of my life when I thought I finally got my happiness, but that happiness just became problems in the end. The cause. The cause is that I focus on that happiness until I forgot logic. For example, when I am happy in a relationship and after a while I knew that the future was a blur and I still go on with it. These are the most mistakes I made in my life. Well it is quite hard for me cause of what I will say below.
    I have this thirst and hunger of being loved. I became a quite self-centered person “the grandiosity” type and a lot of times I asked myself “why have I become this person?” Yes my pasts and my family are part of it, but I am the cause. Maybe if I am strong enough or know what I wanted from the start I wouldn’t become this person. I do have regrets but we can’t change anything do we? I really don’t have the answer to this question but I believe there will be a way for every problems in every single one of us if we have faith. Don’t give up!
     
     

  • Life Picturesque

    Batik Air Business Class

    Batik Air Lounge
    This was the first time I experienced riding business class. First time entering business lounge too. We checked in at the business queue line. It was a fast check in because no one was queuing. Ordered wheel chair for my grandma because the lounge is far from the checked in place.
    We checked in like 2 hours before the flight so we have many time to sit and relax. Grandma said that the food was better when she went with my parents last January. Ate some kind of Bihun and drank cappuccino. I think the food was okay. I still can eat it but she said it was not good. Haha. We got delayed for half an hour for the flight.
    We had to walk quite far from the lounge to our gate. I did not know why they did not tell us there was an option that we can get called first. In the flight we got a light meal.

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    The menu on our way back~

    Bought business class again on our way back to Jakarta but…unfortunately the business lounge was under construction –” but we did not get any complimentary bonus and we ended up at Starbucks LOL.
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    It was a fun experience though 😉
     

  • Life Picturesque,  Thoughts for Life

    Relatives & New Faces; Getting to Know Them

    I went to Surabaya for 3 days. I can’t really get the time to write blogs at that time. Woke up quite late for 2 days because we went home 2-3 a.m. Met some unknown relatives here that I never met (mom’s cousins and children). Pasar Atom is like ITC Mangga Dua in Jakarta but much more smaller. I bought a bag, kentang bawang snack (fav snack all time) and I bought coffees 🙂 Love love it 💕
    The first and second day we met my uncle (aunt’s and mom’s cousin). He is really friendly and fun. I actually got to know a daughter of his but unfortunately she was in Jakarta when we went to Surabaya.
    At night we went to watch Annabelle with a relative that is 6 years younger than me. The film was scary. I love horror movies but I’m scared of the jump scare. Anyway. My relative is a nice girl. We have a chance to actually get to know each other. Anyway after the film we went to McDonald’s and spent another 1 to 2 hours together. I was already tired since I’m used to stay at home.
    Next day we went to Pasar Atom. I don’t really like that kind of places. Gets me anxious and tired fast. I don’t like the crowd but I like to buy the things XD. Oh and I was scared of taking pictures here because me and my cousin just witnessed a robbery just outside Pasar Atom (across from where we were standing). Well I did not really see the robber took something from the guy but it just happened right before we crossed the road to Pasar Atom.
    At night we went with the same relative again with her boyfriend going for a Karaoke. Went to McDonald’s again. Very tired I slept until 10 a.m. I think it’s past my time like going home late. Haha. Maybe when I was still 22 I’m still excited to go.
    Anyway not really much anything we did. Just met a few relatives and went back to Semarang. 
    My intention going was just to have a little refreshment and go outside my house once in awhile, also to talk to my aunt and grandma about my problems. They seemed to understand more than my family. I wish I went here for culinary but no we did not. Even in Surabaya we only went for shopping and meet relatives.
    I am happy that I meet some of my relatives in Surabaya so that I could get to know them. My mom is never a sociable person. She doesn’t like to be around family very much. I don’t know why…maybe she ever had a traumatic event before. I don’t know…but my aunt is different she is very sociable and manage to get connected to the family (her cousins and so on). Me, I love to connect with my relatives and friends. I never hated to meet them, it’s just that now because I had this problem, it’s really hard for me to meet people…but I’m still trying 🙂