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    Tak Sedetikpun


    Kau Bapa yang setia
    Tak pernah sedetik Kau tinggalkan diriku
    Hatiku teguh di dalam janji-Mu
    Sampai ku melihat kuasa-Mu
    Karya-Mu sempurna, ajaib dan mulia
    Penyertaan-Mu buktikan kasih-Mu kepadaku
    Kuagungkan Engkau Yesus termulia
    Kasih-Mu terindah s’lamanya
    Ku tetap berharap di dalam kesesakan
    Ku tetap percaya walau tak melihat
    S’bab ku yakin
    Ronald Pangemanan, Joseph S. Djafar, Michael Panjaitan
    Meaning of this Christian song is Jesus love has the greatest love forever. He never leaves us even when we forgets about Him. I always know He is waiting for me to get back to Him when I’m on the wrong path.

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    A Letter to Jesus

    Before blogging this, I really wanted to complain about things going on today in my until I turn on YouTube to Church songs. I feel like I wanted to pour out about my feelings recently. I cannot claim myself as a Christian fanatic because I never force anyone to really move their religion to mine; even though I wanted them to believe in Jesus Christ. Just a heads up if I blog about Christianity it is because I wanted to share my experience and my struggles also on how God helped me through it.
    Dear Jesus,
    I have been a Christian for about 8 years now. I have been going in and out of Church. I have not been diligent going to Church. I have been forgetting to commit to go to Church, to pray, to not forget about You. All I know is that You are always waiting for me to come back. 
    I see now. All of these problems I am facing is for me to go back to You. For me to be saved again and again. I know when I am happy I tend to forget about You. I did not ask or depend on You; I depend on my own power. You weren’t my priority…until now I realized that all I need is You Jesus.

    Your Child,
    Alyssa Milano
    (yes this is my real name–not the actress though!)

    I was afraid to commit because I always on and off about religion, but recently I have committed to read the Daily Bread, I committed to pray every single day…I know it took a long time to really understands how to love and how to make Jesus priority because Earth things comes first (either it is family or lover or even money). Then today I watched a sermon (streaming) by Pdt. Josia Abdisaputera and it gives me an image of how to make Him priority. I will write it on my next blog under The Journey of a Disciple category (the name is taken by my Church topic).

    Christ is Enough – Hillsong


    VERSE
    Christ is my reward
    And all of my devotion
    Now there’s nothing in this world
    That could ever satisfy

    PRE-CHORUS
    Through every trial
    My soul will sing
    No turning back
    I’ve been set free

    CHORUS
    Christ is enough for me
    Christ is enough for me

    Everything I need is in You
    Everything I need

    VERSE
    Christ my all in all
    The joy of my salvation
    And this hope will never fail
    Heaven is our home
    PRE-CHORUS
    Through every storm
    My soul will sing
    Jesus is here
    To God be the glory

    BRIDGE
    I have decided to follow Jesus
    No turning back
    No turning back

    The cross before me
    The world behind me

    No turning back
    No turning back
    Lyric Source
     

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    Am I Naive? Seeking my Happiness

    Am I a naive person? All these years seeking for happiness that never comes—No, actually it did for awhile. Well we can’t really hoped for a perfect life right? Though on my previous posts I said that I am quite thankful that problems came to me cause if not maybe I wouldn’t have a religion, I wouldn’t know God. Problems are tests whether we stayed or we go. There is one thing I am sure of is that I believe that good things are coming my way. Maybe not now but later on.
    I have been a Christian for 8 years and there are those times where it was “On and Off”. I really tried hard to commit but it seems that I didn’t know how before. There are some happy times where I just forget about Church, the bible, times where I don’t talk to God, but when I have problems, I always return to Him. So these 2 years I decided that when I am ready I will commit. These few months I had started to commit to God again.
    “All these years seeking for happiness that never comes—No, actually it did for awhile.” I ever felt like there are these phases of my life when I thought I finally got my happiness, but that happiness just became problems in the end. The cause. The cause is that I focus on that happiness until I forgot logic. For example, when I am happy in a relationship and after a while I knew that the future was a blur and I still go on with it. These are the most mistakes I made in my life. Well it is quite hard for me cause of what I will say below.
    I have this thirst and hunger of being loved. I became a quite self-centered person “the grandiosity” type and a lot of times I asked myself “why have I become this person?” Yes my pasts and my family are part of it, but I am the cause. Maybe if I am strong enough or know what I wanted from the start I wouldn’t become this person. I do have regrets but we can’t change anything do we? I really don’t have the answer to this question but I believe there will be a way for every problems in every single one of us if we have faith. Don’t give up!